I do this for Me!!!

First off,  I would like to apologize for not keeping my promise. I said that I would keep up on my blog, but, I havent!!! Due to a busier work schedule, its been hard to write...
So, there are so many questions I need to answer. Ive been asked what am I doing, and how am I doing it. First, let me say, it hasnt been easy. I had been doing amazingly well. In 3 months, I had lost 35 pounds!! Then,  I went on vacation for my birthday, and that started a domino effect of bad eating habits. I ate out a lot while in Dallas. Fried foods, sweets, you name it, I ate it. When I came back from Dallas,  I had told myself I was going to get back to it. Well, that didnt happen, at all. I got tired of cooking, so I was eating a lot of fast food, for about 2-3 weeks straight. The whole month of April was just bad!! I continued to work out, but that means nothing when your eating habits are terrible. So, I was gaining weight, rapidly. By the end of the month, I has gained 10 pounds.  I cried,  and I felt so bad, because I had worked so hard. It was justso hard to get back into eating healthy. It was stressing me out bIecause I couldn't understand why I had to be the fat one.  Why did I have to work so hard, when others around me didn't? I wanted to be able to eat, drink, and be merry, and not worry about my jeans not fitting. I had to get out of the funk, quickly. Where did the confident woman go? I had gotten to a point that I didn't care if anyone liked my size of not. Where did she go? When did i get so caught up in what everyone else thought? I love myself, and no matter what size I am, it doesnt define who I am.
 Thats when enough was enough. My cousin Jen asked me and asked if I wanted to detox, and I said of course. So yesterday,  we finished a 9 day detox.  This 9 days sucked for me but it was exactly what I needed to get back into the groove. I want to look good for myself, not anyone else. I do this for me, and thats all that matters. Ive fallen, but I get back up and face another day. I work hard!!I do my best and aim for results!! I had to stop putting a timeline on everything,  and just do it!!! P.U.S.H. pray until something happens,  then you keep on praying. Striving for greatness. Never give up!!!